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Quoting the film Trainspotting from the British screenwriter John Hodge:

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

Despite the heroin thing, this last sentence was the heroin talking, I think that there is a lot of truth in this text. I'm not sure if it is something argument-able or the kind of thing you learn by experiences (so it depends on perception).

There is a kind of paradox here, because I think that it is actually possible that this choosing thing could be chosen in its own. In fact, this is a reasonable way (among a lot that I might not know) of understanding life, so it is possible to choose it among the rest. At least there is the destiny way, which assumes that you are not the one who makes de choices, they are already made for you.

Thinking about my choosings,

• I choose to choose choosing as the way of life (not mine, every).
• I choose to choose life and I choose it.
• I choose to try to be happy (meaning it).
• I choose to believe in logic.

What does choosing choosing and choosing to be happy means?

Most of the people know that, more or less, everything has connotations (to us), well, you can voluntarily change the connotations that we get from anything. If you see a bottle half-empty and half-full, you can choose to give more importance to the fact that it is half-empty, this is to be optimistic.

For example, about long-lasting relationships, you really never know if it would work for ever or not, so, in order to feel stable, you have to choose to believe that it will last. Of course, it is a risky bet, but not doing so may lead to insecurity and jealousy. Now think that somehow you have doubts, then you have to explore your feelings, but if you have no clues, you may have to choose, taking risks, of course.

This post could have been named Life is a matter of taking risks.